Holy.......God.....I NEED YOUR HELP

The day is here.

This day which I set in my mind several weeks ago to start a new fight. A fight with my own mind, body, and soul.

I have been working towards this day for several years now. It has been about five years since the slimy inner shame crept up to my throat, seeping through my eyes reflexively causing my hands to cover my face. I chose to become somewhat of a hermit, more like a caged animal in a small one bedroom apartment full of food. I decided my body needed to change. I was too attractive and I needed to hide. A victim mindset deeply rooted into my being from a young age.

But I have to fight now. THIS IS MY BODY.


My body belongs to me. Unlike the lies that I have been taught, that my body belongs to the men around me. Time for my beauty to be shown, not only on the inside, but also on the outside.

Don't worry I am not saying that I will be scandalous, for I know that the physical is a place of deep temptation for my bothers from other mothers.

So I started this morning after a lot of fear and emotional roller coasters last night, but this morning I had my fizz stick of good vitamins, made my oatmeal, my lunch shake, and DID NOT HAVE COFFEE......A little caffeine free tea.  I am not quite grumpy yet, but I am sure Keith did not like my lack of chatter this morning, or maybe he did...... :-)

I am taking control of my own body, from head to toe! Resting in faith that God can and will get me through this hard transformation.

Because I can't do this alone, I can rest in knowing that I am not doing this alone.







You can start your tomorrow today. You just have to begin, take your step with me.

The Choice is OURS.



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