Poem of Surrender

God and I were in a battle of wills this morning over a deep heart change. He allowed the struggle as we wrestled through the issues; yet, ultimately in my surrender I receive a blessing.

I know my heart
I know more of God’s heart
I know my own desires
I know a portion of God’s desires
I give tell Him my plans
He doesn’t tell me His
I see my pain
He sees my pain too
I worry about my future
He asks me to have joy in the moment
I tell him I can’t
He tells me I can choose
He will help; He already has helped
I remind myself of His help
I choose to live in today and give Him both today
………and tomorrows. I choose.

I find myself not overjoyed or overwhelmed, not full of any type of resolve or renewed strength, but a surrender of trust and a release of worry and pain. God gives me a time of normalcy, where I can become more obedient and dependent on a God of pure love.


His Child. His Daughter. His Friend. His Follower. His. 

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