Internal Landscape
Overwhelmed with Change.
I have yet to meet someone who truly enjoys change. They may on the surface seek many differing venues, people, or work environments, yet even this "squirrel"-ADHD behavior, either learned or natural, is still their version of normal. I'd like to see that person change by sitting still!
True change requires a look at one's worldview resulting in different actions from their normal status quo, modis operandi, and other clique means of communicating that people stay the same, and DO NOT CHANGE.
I actually believe that true deep change is near impossible, not to mention extremely uncomfortable. When someone does change it is usually in response to some future consequence being more painful than it would be to change at present. Meaning it would be more painful currently if they stayed the same.
So now let's just touch on the pain involved in true change.
For highly spatially aware individuals, even a new venue can mess with emotional state, tipping the scales on their ability to control their reactions.
My emotional balance fluctuates more when I am in a new environment. All energy is routed to the attempt to manage the change, while monitoring external appearances. Once my energy is drained, the ability to maintain a normal exterior diminishes revealing the tumultuous internal landscape caused by the need to adapt, conform, or reform myself. The mountain discloses itself as the lava boiling volcano. The emotional turmoil explodes on the external landscape revealing itself as just as jarring, destructive, yet ultimately life-giving as the internal counterpart. Once the dust settles and the lava cools, there will be a new face altogether. The mountain, though no longer the same, is now balanced and new life will emerge in time.
The pain of not changing may seem worse than the process of change. Unless the pain or pressure really is worse, I think most of the time we stay the same, letting our self continue to boil and burn, with our austere exterior.
I have yet to meet someone who truly enjoys change. They may on the surface seek many differing venues, people, or work environments, yet even this "squirrel"-ADHD behavior, either learned or natural, is still their version of normal. I'd like to see that person change by sitting still!
True change requires a look at one's worldview resulting in different actions from their normal status quo, modis operandi, and other clique means of communicating that people stay the same, and DO NOT CHANGE.
I actually believe that true deep change is near impossible, not to mention extremely uncomfortable. When someone does change it is usually in response to some future consequence being more painful than it would be to change at present. Meaning it would be more painful currently if they stayed the same.
So now let's just touch on the pain involved in true change.
For highly spatially aware individuals, even a new venue can mess with emotional state, tipping the scales on their ability to control their reactions.
My emotional balance fluctuates more when I am in a new environment. All energy is routed to the attempt to manage the change, while monitoring external appearances. Once my energy is drained, the ability to maintain a normal exterior diminishes revealing the tumultuous internal landscape caused by the need to adapt, conform, or reform myself. The mountain discloses itself as the lava boiling volcano. The emotional turmoil explodes on the external landscape revealing itself as just as jarring, destructive, yet ultimately life-giving as the internal counterpart. Once the dust settles and the lava cools, there will be a new face altogether. The mountain, though no longer the same, is now balanced and new life will emerge in time.
The pain of not changing may seem worse than the process of change. Unless the pain or pressure really is worse, I think most of the time we stay the same, letting our self continue to boil and burn, with our austere exterior.
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